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    Taking flight…


    2021 - 06.04

    The sun shines on a couple of trees in the forest.

    I am at a point in my life where I seek to keep my spirit and heart engaged in every aspect of my life. This is not something that is easy to do. I believe that by tying them together for myself, I will be able to rise above previous conditioning and move forward in my life with compassion and kindness being the primary motivator for my actions and reactions. Part of that is being kind to myself as well…what does that mean? It means that I get to expand my spirit and spark my creativity because these things are me taking care of myself and my own light.

    Yes, that clears things up for you, doesn’t it? I didn’t think so either, it sounds like a collection of buzzwords without meaning but I can assure you that there is meaning, for me. For the last nine months, I have been using a pathworking system that I created to fuse together all the tools I have at my disposal. In this system, I pull together elements of tarot, lithomancy, crystal healing, and astrology and set up a method of usage that incorporates monthly, weekly, and daily (if you choose) reflection points. It is in the combination of usage that you find you can begin truly healing and creating harmonic energy in your life.

    Sounds interesting…but still not a lot of detail. I am working on writing the full details of the system and plan to release it with kits available for adding later this year if all goes as planned. My goals are simple to give myself and others the tools they can use (and modify) to make their lives better. You can begin healing yourself and find greater happiness which can lead to better prosperity and joy. Like anything, there are no guarantees but I have been working with this for a while now and am finding my emotional and spiritual self-healing as my ability to communicate what I need grows so too does my joy as I receive what I need.

    A visit with water…


    2021 - 02.24
    Winter Beach Surf

    A windy day at Rialto Beach as the waves crash

    For as long as I can remember, water has been my solace, my place where I find balance and am able to let go of pretty much everything that is plaguing my mind or spirit. Water is the flow of life, it encompasses all levels from being soothing to deadly and without it well we would not exist.

    It’s been a while since I took time to write and I can tell because I feel scattered and all over the place. It’s cold and previously has been snowy so a visit to the water is not in the cards right now. I make due by spending time in a warm bubble bath with candles when I can and on the busy days, I settle into washing dishes by hand just so that I have the comfort of water.

    I’ve not been what you would call “well” for a while. Between struggles with my sinus’, back, and knee pain I also struggle with depression and anxiety. Right now it’s finally starting to recede, I think. It faked me out a little last week with one or two pretty good days then bit me again saying no, I am not done with you yet. I’ve started a new supplement to help with it and I am less than a week into it so we will see how it goes in another few days. I’m not willing to say this episode is over yet. It’s been the longest episode of depression I’ve had in a long time but not as severe as some in the past. Yes, there was a lot of ideation and thoughts of cutting but I did not develop a plan nor did I self-harm so I will take it as a slight win. The ideation is still there but it’s not as severe as in previous episodes.

    Working through and resolving a history of trauma is not easy and my path helps me along in that greatly. How you may ask? Every day I sit down in the morning at my desk with my daily draw from my Beyond Lemuria Oracle deck. I sit with the card and consider the message while working to apply it to my life. I’ve added in working with Kuan Yin Oracle and learning to work with Kuan Yin to increase the positive alignment within to be more compassionate, kind, forgiving, and willing to extend mercy to those who have harmed. In these actions, I have found a base to allow myself to FEEL and RELEASE some of the negativity that surrounds me. I am able to slowly begin letting go of the bindings of my heart and spirit. Soon I will soar.