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When growth meets an obstacle

This morning when I pulled my cards for a daily reading I was both surprised and not by the message received. As I mentioned in my last post, my focus has been shifting and the healing continues in my life and my path grows. I previously shared my weekly and monthly cards from Dreams of Gaia. During the week I also pull cards daily in my Chrysalis Tarot (shuffled on the first of every month for a month-long focus) and then my Beyond Lemuria Oracle which gets shuffled every two weeks with the New and Full moons. This method while non-traditional works very well for me and it really helps.

Four of Stones, Chrysalis Tarot. Resing in the lid of a handmade Tarot Box

Today, I pulled the Four of Stones from Chrysalis Tarot. This card is a MESSAGE. *laugh* This card is coming to me today to tell me that there is something blocking my path forward. This beautiful bejeweled chest is distracting and holds within it material possessions treasured and the whispers of those that are sought. If I am to move forward in my path and achieve my dreams, I must move the chest aside. My focus has been split between squirreling away treasures and growth. Treasures are bits and pieces of my path and life that aid but sometimes prove to be distractions. This card tells me to be more aware of the “ooh shiny” distraction of acquiring wealth or other material things that could hamper the growth process with all the sparkling that they do.

This is a good reminder that as I move from working within to out I will need to adjust my mindset and “move the chest” obstructing my path forward. The time to shift these gears is upon me and I shall move forward with a little effort to remove blocks….

A visit with water…

Winter Beach Surf

A windy day at Rialto Beach as the waves crash

For as long as I can remember, water has been my solace, my place where I find balance and am able to let go of pretty much everything that is plaguing my mind or spirit. Water is the flow of life, it encompasses all levels from being soothing to deadly and without it well we would not exist.

It’s been a while since I took time to write and I can tell because I feel scattered and all over the place. It’s cold and previously has been snowy so a visit to the water is not in the cards right now. I make due by spending time in a warm bubble bath with candles when I can and on the busy days, I settle into washing dishes by hand just so that I have the comfort of water.

I’ve not been what you would call “well” for a while. Between struggles with my sinus’, back, and knee pain I also struggle with depression and anxiety. Right now it’s finally starting to recede, I think. It faked me out a little last week with one or two pretty good days then bit me again saying no, I am not done with you yet. I’ve started a new supplement to help with it and I am less than a week into it so we will see how it goes in another few days. I’m not willing to say this episode is over yet. It’s been the longest episode of depression I’ve had in a long time but not as severe as some in the past. Yes, there was a lot of ideation and thoughts of cutting but I did not develop a plan nor did I self-harm so I will take it as a slight win. The ideation is still there but it’s not as severe as in previous episodes.

Working through and resolving a history of trauma is not easy and my path helps me along in that greatly. How you may ask? Every day I sit down in the morning at my desk with my daily draw from my Beyond Lemuria Oracle deck. I sit with the card and consider the message while working to apply it to my life. I’ve added in working with Kuan Yin Oracle and learning to work with Kuan Yin to increase the positive alignment within to be more compassionate, kind, forgiving, and willing to extend mercy to those who have harmed. In these actions, I have found a base to allow myself to FEEL and RELEASE some of the negativity that surrounds me. I am able to slowly begin letting go of the bindings of my heart and spirit. Soon I will soar.